aiff  wav  ra Music by Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips there's almost nothing left you eat my kind for breakfast what did i expect to come here and find anyone? find open arms to greet me and friends to feed me i sicken myself so much and you eat my kind for breakfast you eat my kind whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whatever i have been given, whatever i have been seeing myself this way i am a monster i believe and seeing is believing is there no doubt left when i wake up i poison myself and poison leaves no appetite i sicken myself so much i sicken myself so whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whatever i have been given, whatever i have been did we expect these things to change by waking up and suddenly there they are and all i need's a starting place and nothing ever seemed so hard . . . whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whatever i have been given, whatever i have been || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Todd Nichols, Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips and Todd Nichols open up and let me in i was lucky to live, don't need to win forgave myself and if that's a sin it's not enough you'd even know it you did right to call my bluff 'cause i won't say when i have had enough and i worked so hard to need this stuff and you tried so long to just ignore it won't you come down where i am words are hidden, understand i won't repeat myself again i will not repeat myself again it's another promise d.o.a. and despite my every hope there is no truth behind my best intentioned oath won't you come down where i am words are hidden, understand won't you come down been away too long, i know i have won't you come down, help me stand there is healing in your hands won't you come down where i am words all leave me been away too long i know i've been away too long i know i have || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips are you the plane that shapes the board part of a history smoothed and worn oh the windy weather dry spells, brushfire isn't it strange to see my life you must cut me down to look inside oh the simple pleasures this ring tells of rain this one, summers good years, nightmares how is it i remember knowing that i would live forever isn't it strange how truth can change oh the windy weather this ring tells of rain this one, summers dry spells, brushfire || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips is it this place that makes me fall from you forget the words that once rang so true did we expect that life was ever fair, my god . . . i sowed a field of rose and reaped a whipping rod and everything i've held too tight inside could make a part of me die and if my lips could only speak the name the dam would break what is this ice that gathers 'round my heart to stop the flood of warmth before it even starts it would make me blind to what i thought would always be the only constant in the world for me and every hour of every day i need to fight from pulling away and if my mind could only loose the chain the dam would break for all the things i hid away and all the words i could not say the dam would break || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips i want to be clean, i want to be whole i want revenge, i want control i want to give up, i want to give in destroy all i have been i want to be cruel, i want to be cold i want a chance to sell my soul i want to break out, i want to dive in to lose myself in sin i don't need anything i'm just wanting just wanting desire all desire is desire feeds desire desire all desire is desire breeds desire i want to scream, i want to shout i want to have faith and never doubt i want to bend, i want to break to sleep and never wake to break down walls and to escape be alone and hide my face i want to feel, i want to touch want to stop wanting it so much i don't need anything i'm just wanting just wanting desire all desire is desire feeds desire desire all desire is desire breeds desire || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips lead me well, don't clear my way fascinating how the pallor can stay upon your face when you are light like a little boy flying kites and shouting to the world you're shouting to the world your joy don't fade, you're staying here with me don't fade, i need to know that someone still believes look around, see for yourself he led us down and at the water's edge we knelt petals in the lake and red upon my face she's crying as we pray and it all comes down to money, again how could you forsake the love of god that way don't fade, you're staying here with me don't fade, i need to know that someone still believes || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips little man big man who came first what is the measure of our worth if there was a storm rolled in who'd run inside who'd go walking little man big man what's inside it's all in the places where we find our pride if there was a soul lost by the road who'd pass by who'd take it home where is the beast lying is there a beast hiding little man big man who is who it's all in the damage that our toys can do if there was a window pane who'd throw stones who'd walk away where is the beast lying is there a beast hiding are we moving are we learning little man big man fade away it's all in the violence of the games we play it's all in the violence of the games we play it's all in the love we give today || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by: Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by: Glen Phillips take your cautionary tales and take your incremental gain and all the sycophantic games and throw 'em all away burn your tv in your yard and gather 'round it with your friends and warm your hands upon the fire and start again take the story you've been sold the lies that justify the pain the guilt that weighs upon your soul and throw 'em all away tear up the calendar you bought and throw the pieces to the sky confetti falling down like rain like a parade to usher in your life take the dreams that should've died the ones that kept you lying awake when you should've been all right and throw 'em all away with the time i waste on the life i never had i could've turned myself into a better man there is nothing you can buy and there is nothing you can save to fill the hole inside your heart so throw it all away help me to empty this house the wool i've gathered all these days and thought i couldn't do without and throw it all away || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Todd Nichols, Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips here, i need your help deliver me from myself take me where i'm wanted or make me someone else never mind what they said forget about the things you read it was something you'll never know never see, never understand just leave it now if you can tell me when they come for you who will there be to speak and when they come for you who will there be left to speak for you? the final solution's back in style we are the ones letting it ride i never knew we were so blind amnesia in comfort, so unkind tell me when they come for you who will there be to speak and when they come for you who will there be left to speak for you? || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips life is suffering tee-hee, ha-ha life is suffering tee-hee, ha-ha cold and shuddering tee-hee, ha-ha cruel and pummeling tee-hee, ha-ha smile on little buddha, smile on little buddha, smile on it's only illusion, then it's gone lost and struggling tee-hee, ha-ha life is suffering tee-hee, ha-ha smile on little buddha, smile on little buddha, smile on it's only an illusion, then you're gone maya || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Todd Nichols and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips Lead vocal: Todd anyway now, it don't seem right he is in there and you're on the outside over pine ridge to wounded knee there's blood on the ground as far as you see crazy life in the air i'm sensing a change of weather in the end a change is due does anyone remember here did you all think he'd just disappear crazy life what've you done with Peltier who did you think you'd taken away crazy life in the air i'm sensing a change of the weather in the end the path is clear burying won't stop it breathing forever underground it takes to root anyway now, it don't seem right he is in there and you're on the outside what've you done with Peltier who did you think you'd taken away crazy life it's not over... || return || aiff  wav  ra Music by Glen Phillips and Toad Lyrics by Glen Phillips call me up when you need strangers often deceive and there's something so freeing to call out a name and someone's believing i've been changing my mind through with looking behind it's a crash course in life the best you can do is pass by no getting out alive i'll hold a light for you to see all things in time, all you'll ever need something i can't explain keeps me running, afraid and every day looks me in the face and says "who'd you think you were, anyway?" if you'll hold a light for me to see all things in time, all we'll ever need well, you told me so that we'd seen this all before so what is it keeps us coming back for more? i'll hold a light for you to see all things in time, all you'll ever need all things in time, all we'll ever need || return || This is an additional song that exists on all compact disc copies of COIL. It can only be accessed through this web site. Put a copy of coil in your computer's CD Rom drive and follow these instructions. green button like a lantern illuminates this cavern and outside nothing matters anymore my instinct won't deceive me my senses will not leave me when there's no one left to grieve me I won't mourn good night, don't fear I always will watch over you my dear good night, sleep well I'll see you with the rest of them in hell my hand won't shake the console my handcuff will not rattle as I win the final battle of all wars and down beneath the ocean I'll dream of wings in motion a blinding glory that'll show 'em what freedom's for good night, don't fear I always will watch over you my dear good night, sleep well I'll see you with the rest of them in hell and so, for now, farewell... || return || All songs © 1997 Sony/ATV Tunes LLC, Wet Sprocket Songs (ASCAP) All rights administered by: Sony/ATV Music Publishing 8 Music Square West, Nashville Except "Crazy Life" All Rights Reserved. Used by Permission. © 1995 Sony/ATV Tunes LLC, Wet Sprocket Songs (ASCAP) All rights administered by: Sony/ATV Music Publishing 8 Music Square West, Nashville All Rights Reserved. Used by Permission.